All you can ever learn is what you already know.

I just want to meet these people. I want to ask them if they all started out this way. If they really wanted to be rich and famous and not worry about sincerity or honesty at all. Or if they used to have goals, dreams, and beliefs and they all just kind of got swept under the rug. Either way, I hope I don't turn out that way. I have dreams. I have goals. I believe there can be more to this. I hope I never lose that faith.

There's a better fire in Minneapolis.

I love my band. They're the best friends I've ever had and the greatest people I could ever hope to play music with. I made this video tonight, I hope not too many people read this blog other than the people I'm aware of that read it because the background music to this video should probably not be heard yet. I'll be posting a new video with the completed song once I get it. But it was too good to pass up. It made me smile and it made me more sure than ever that this is what I need to be doing with my life. Nick and Tristan (Alex, do you read this?), I hope you get a kick out of this and smile a little. Margot, you're the only other one who reads this, I think. So pretty much this is how I spent last summer.

There's never enough time.

Why do I keep getting the feeling that you don't want this as much as I do? That we're never going to agree on anything and we're not going to work hard enough to make this go somewhere? I feel like there's something here that's really worth fighting for, but what's the point when all we're fighting is each other?

Damn it.

Knees.

I miss someone.

I'd run there, but knees are weak and my body needs to be close to you sometime soon.

I love Hot Rod Circuit.

My band just finished writing the music for the last two songs on our EP. Now we just have to get some lyrics done and we'll be set. Everything is turning out much better than I'd anticipated, I am so excited about it! I can't wait to get this pressed and get it into peoples' hands, I hope everyone will really like it.

So far away.

Even from 1,300 miles away you make me smile at least once a day and it's more than I've had in a while.

Life is strange sometimes. Good friends come from the most unexpected places.

Tortures of the damned.

I used to believe that everyone, after living a certain amount of time, would harbor a certain amount of hatred or resentment toward themselves. I mean, who in their life has met a person that they could spend every single second of 19 years with and not get sick of them? I used to believe that everyone hated themselves to some extent and that it was up to our friends, families, and other people in general to see the good in each other and try to remind each other of that.

I used to think that by now, everyone must be sick of themselves. Everyone must hate themselves.

Now I think that it's just me.

Invisible monsters.

"The one you love and the one who loves you are never, ever the same person."

It has been a very long time since I updated this. Life has had a lot of ups and downs lately. My band is doing amazing. We've got almost half of our new EP done and it's sounding awesome.

I'm really short on money lately and it's a real bummer. I'm looking hard for a second job so hopefully something comes through soon. This bad economy is really starting to get to me.

I got a new dog. His name is Bob. Got him for free from Rick, there wasn't any room for him to run around or be out of his kennel at the studio so he's in my house now. He's having a great time so far, the other dogs like him and he gets to run around all day long. Plus he's the best at fetch ever. And he almost caught a rabbit last night. Rabbits are fast, but Bob is fast too.

I love my friends. I love my life, for the most part. I'm making some decisions to change some things that I've wanted to change for a long time. I'm going to try and stop skating by on what I can and try to work a little harder at the things I need to work hard at.

I'm going to try and keep updating this thing more often so I don't have to try and squeeze a whole month into a few paragraphs again.

I've been reading a lot of Chuck Pahlaniuk lately and it's really good.

See you soon.

-Drew.