Kill.

Oh God, please don't tell me this has been in vain.
I need answers for what all the waiting I've done means.
You kill me, you've got some nerve, but can't face your mistakes.
I know what I should do, but I just can't turn away.

So go on love, leave while there's still hope for escape.

Got to take what you can these days.
There's so much ahead, so much regret.
I know what you want to say.
I know it but can't help feeling differently.


I loved you, and I should have said it.
But tell me just what has it ever meant?
I can't help it baby, this is who I am.
Sorry, but I can't just go turn off how I feel.
You kill me, you build me up, but just to watch me break.

I know what I should do, but I just can't walk away

Get it together.

I am not going to miss another class. I am going to study for my classes. I am going to start seriously applying for a second job. I am going to work hard and do my part to make my band as good as it can possibly be. I am going to save money. I am going to stop spending so much on fast food. I am going to start eating healthier. I am going to start exercising. I am going to find a way to manage my time better.

I know you don't believe me. And I know I haven't given you any reason to. Yet.

But I'm going to make you proud of me.